Almost There - THANK GOD!!!!

Ok, so I'm down to the final stretch. Just 4 weeks to go until our bundle of joy is due to arrive. Of course, if I really have to wait that long I will be insane when she gets here. The past couple of weeks have been very hard on me. I'm really huge for as far along that I am, and it's beginning to affect my life. I'm barely sleeping because my back hurts so bad and it's almost impossible for me to find a comfortable position. I have heartburn 24/7 no matter what I eat or drink. Sometimes it's so bad, it makes me feel sick.

Now don't get me wrong. I wanted this baby more than anything, and I really can't wait for her to come.. but enough is enough!! At 35 weeks and 5 days, I'm measuring to be about 44cms!! I'm usually off by 1 or 2 cms, which means the doctor will probably measure me around 42cms. That's the size I was when I had Brayden, who weighed 8lbs 11ozs. I had him full term. Now I'm really hoping that I'm not carrying around a 8lb baby this early - but I would like to know exactly how much baby I am carrying around.

I go to the doctor on Wednesday. At my last appointment he told me that we would probably get to do an ultrasound to see how big she is. He better keep his word!!! Unfortunately, my doctor is the kind of doctor that really doesn't care too much about how bad the mothers are feeling. As long as the nurse gets a heartbeat at my appointments, he sends me on my way telling me that everything is ok. I don't like this approach. I am gung-ho on having a natural delivery, and I'm going to be very pissed if the baby gets too big to deliver vaginally. I don't mind a c-section if it's an emergancy situation, but I will not be happy if I have to have a c-section because my doctor wasn't competant enough to keep an eye on the growth of the baby.

Ok, so I guess my rant is over. As you can probably tell, I'm very tired and cranky. I'm ready for my little girl to be here already!!!

She Finally Has A Name!!!

Wow, I can't believe that I'm down to 8 weeks left. I'm 32 weeks pregnant on Thursday, although I believe my lil bundle of joy will be here in about 6. I'm very big for how far along I am, so I'm hoping that my doc will give me the thumbs up to have her around 38 weeks. That will be the end of November, after Thanksgiving hopefully, which would be nice.

I finally managed to get Steve to come up with a name for our lil girl. Her name is Jada Kindle Davis!! I love it! It's unique, not too out there, and it sounds cute. I will now have a Payton, Brayden, and Jada. I had always loved the name Jayden. Having a Payton and a Brayden already - I really didn't want to have 3 kids with names that all rhymed. Having Jada will still be along the same lines, but different enough not to rhyme.. LOL

I go back to the doctor on Halloween, and I'm going to beg and plead for another ultrasound to see how big Jada actually is. I'm a little nervous that my doctor isn't that concerned with how big I'm getting - and I really don't want to try and naturally deliver a 10lb baby. I have full intentions of having her COMPLETELY natural - no drugs!!! I already hear the "yeah, rights", but I did it with Brayden and I preferred it hands down to having that horrible epidural. That thing was a nightmare, and has made my life miserable ever since. Thanks to the stinking epidural I had with Payton, I now how the most horrible back pains and will more than likely have back labor. :(

That's it for now, update again on the festivities of Halloween no doubt.

15 Weeks to Go!!

I can't believe I'm already 25 weeks along. That means only 15 weeks to my due date, but probably closer to 13 weeks to delivery. The baby is due the week after finals, that's just a little too perfect.. so of course she'll come early so that it will mess it all up. LOL

Last week, I got the first glimpse of her movement from the outside of my belly. It's so cool to see the little "bops" of my stomach when she kicks, and to see the little lump of a foot or an arm as she moves around. At first Brayden was the only other person besides me to see her moving, which really upset Payton. She thought the baby didn't love her because she never moves or kicks when Payton is around. Last night, baby made it up to Payton. She gave her a good couple of kicks to her hands and cheek (Payton put her head on my tummy) and also gave Payton quite a show of movement. It made Payton feel a lot better.

We still don't have a name for her. I've been on Steve's case about getting a name picked, but he thinks we still have plenty of time to worry about picking a name out. I don't! I just have a horrible feeling that we're going to be scrambling while I'm in labor for a name - and I don't want that to happen.

Well, that's the update for now... more to come soon!!

Fat People Can't Have Kids Now???

So, I'm sitting in the living room this morning watching the news while I'm waiting for Steve to come home from work. I basically put it on in the morning for noise while I'm getting ready, but a story that had on this morning made me perk up and pay attention.

A guy in Missouri wanted to adopt his cousin's baby as the cousin was unable to care for the small child. The man already has a 7 year old adopted son, and is a state certified foster parent. A judge denied his petition for full adoption on the sole purpose of... wait for it.... HE'S FAT!!

Read full story here: http://www.moretv32.com/family/13767506/detail.html

The story goes on to reveal that the judge has concerns that the 500lb man may get diabetes or other weight related medical issues. GIVE ME A BREAK!!!! Hearing about this story really pissed me off. I'm an overweight person, I have no problems with diabetes or any other weight problems. What the hell has that got to do with having a child???

My questioning moves on further to ask, now that this poor guy has been denied the right to adopt his cousin - who will care for the child now? The biological parent has stated that she can't care for the child, so what happens now? I suppose they put the child into foster care. We all know that foster care is SO MUCH better than placing the child with biological family members, right?? I am so outraged by this B.S.

I understand that weight can play a part in many health factors, but this poor guy has a very active 7 year old son that he stated he plays with often. The 7 year old is suffering in no way by having an obese father. To say that a person should be denied adoption rights because he "may" get some form of weight health issues is the same as saying someone "may" get cancer, or "may" get hit by a freaking bus. No one can prove that ALL overweight people are going to have health issues.

I just had to get my rant out about this. What's next on the list of what judges can decide??? How utterly ridiculous!!!

A Little Rant

Ok, so everything with the pregnancy is going great except for the fact that I'm experiencing every pregnancy symptom possible. Even though I'm pretty miserable all of the time, I try not to complain too much cause I'm getting exactly what I asked for.. LOL

My biggest beef lately is my not being able to sleep. For the past few weeks, I've grown quite accustomed to not getting much sleep. The main cause is the fact that I'm finding it more and more difficult to find a comfortable sleeping position. That much I don't mind. My rant is due to the fact that even though I'm living with the pregnancy problems, I've had to add a major toothache to my list of ailments. I have a wisdom tooth that's impacted, and because it has to be surgically removed I'm stuck with it until after the baby is born. Luckily, the pain comes and goes, but I'm still having to deal with it a few nights a week. The pain is at the worse at night, when I'm laying down. So, on those nights I get absolutely no sleep. Tooth pain is one of the worst pains, in my opinion. It feels like I've been stabbed in the cheek, and no amount of the pregnancy allowable pain meds helps at all. I've completely cut out soda, and drink nothing but water and milk. I find that the smallest amount of sugar makes the pain appear, so I'm trying to avoid that at all costs. I'm most nervous about starting school again next week. Right now, not getting any sleep at night isn't too bad being that my job is very easy - but when I have to start studying all of the time, that I'm a little nervous about.

Well, that's my bitching over for today... till next time folks. ;)

The Weekend

So, I'm bored at work so I figured I'd write a blog. I really need to start doing this on a regular basis, but there just isn't much going on my life right now that I think is very interesting. This past weekend was quite fun-filled. Friday night, my parents came over to spend the weekend. They spent the weekend last weekend too so that Steve and my dad could go fishing, this weekend it was for a cookout and to bring me my recliner and dresser.

My dad decided last weekend that I was in serious need of a recliner due to my feet swelling like balloons after spending the day going to yard sales with my mom. Luckily, my grandpa had a rocker recliner that he wasn't using and decided I could have it. My parents brought it to me Friday night along with a great dresser for the baby. I was miserably hot when they got to the house. The weather lately has been smothering. The humidity is in the record highs and I can't even stand being outside of the house for more than a few minutes. Steve had been in the kitchen cooking dinner for the family for about 2 hours before my parents arrived, so the inside of the house was almost as hot as the outside. After everyone was done eating, the house finally cooled down to a comfortable temperature.

On Saturday, Jane came over to meet my parents. Jane is going to be in the delivery room with me when I have the baby. Steve and I thought it would be good for Jane and my parents to meet so that there were no strangers in the delivery room. We all had a great time. Jane got along great with my parents, and it was an enjoyable day.

Sunday, my parents went home and I did some laundry. It was nice to relax for a little while, but then I realized it was Asia's birthday and had to go get her something. We went to Wal-Mart and picked out a few toys for her. Just being out for the little while we were out made me miserable. I was feeling quite sick by the time we got home, so I just plopped down in the recliner and tried to cool down. That was my weekend in a nutshell!!

It's a GIRL!!!

Yesterday was finally the day to have the 20 week ultrasound. Steve met me and the kids at the doctor's office at 8am. I was very nervous, and excited. All of the kids and my family were convinced that I was going to have a boy. Brayden decided to change his mind on the way to the doctor's office, and stated he thought the baby was a girl. After 30 minutes of waiting, we finally got called back. The technician did all of her stuff first - measurements, making sure that the baby had all the major organs and stuff - and then the fun part. She moved the baby around a little to be able to get a good shot between her legs - and there it was - the "cheeseburger". I couldn't believe it. Even I had an inkling that we were going to have a boy.

I'm very excited. I didn't really mind what we had either way. I have one of each already, so either way is great. I'm excited about having a little girl. That means I get to dress her up in cute little dresses, and make cute lacy blankets for her. The kids are excited also. Payton wanted a girl all along. Brayden wanted a brother, but is happy it's a girl. He gets to keep his room all to his self now, so that's a plus for him.

After the ultrasound, I took the kids and my sister to eat breakfast. They were all very excited, as was I, so I thought it would be nice to get out with them for a while. I made all the phone calls I needed to. My sister called my mom, I called Leah, Payton called Jane, Brayden called Nanny. Everyone had their designated people to call. It was a fun day. Now that all the excitement is over with - hopefully the rest of the pregnancy will fly by. I'm excited to see her and hold her now.

Well, that's the update right now. I will keep you posted. :)

5 months pregnant!!

Ok, so it's been FOREVER since I posted. I keep promising to update this thing on a regular basis, and then never do. Well, as you can tell by the title, quite a bit has been going on since my last post.

First, and most important, I am five months pregnant. The news came to us as quite a shock. The day before I took the test, Steve and I had discussed me getting back on birth control. While we were having the conversation, something just didn't sit well with me and so the next day I bought a pregnancy test on the way to work. When I took the test, it took all of 10 seconds to show a positive response. I decided to take another one a couple of hours later, just to be sure, and it was positive. I rushed home and gave Steve the shocking news. He took it as I expected he would; he didn't say a word. He wasn't angry or upset, just shocked. For the first couple of months, I chose not to talk about the baby as I just really wasn't sure how he was feeling about it. Now things are better. He's opened up a little, and seems to be coming around to the idea that we're going to have a baby in the house. I'm due on December 14th, and we go for an ultrasound on July 31st to find out the sex of the baby (hopefully). I'm really excited about that. I feel huge and I look huge. I don't look pregnant, just very fat.

I got through my first semester of school without any problems. I made all A's and B's in my classes, so I was very proud of myself. I'm taking 3 classes right now, during the summer. I made an A in the first class, and in the process of the other 2 classes now. Next semester, I'm signed up for another full load. With the baby coming, things will have to slow down just a little in the Spring semester but I'll be going at full speed again by next fall.

Another shocking piece of news... I no longer work for Wal-Mart! I quit my job in April due to the demand being too much on me while being in school. I applied for a part-time job at the college working in the IT department, and I got it! It's only working 18 hours a week, which is so great for my busy schedule with school. I work with a great bunch of people, and the job couldn't be any less stressful. I sit around answering the phone, and playing on the internet all day. I can also do my homework at work, which helps out a great deal. It gives me more time at home with the family, rather than all my spare time being spent on studying. The job will also be great once the baby comes, as I will be home a lot more. I have no doubt that Steve will be fine at home with the baby, but I really want to be there as much as possible too.

Well, that's the main news going on right now. Payton and Brayden are doing great. Payton is just as smart as ever, and got into playing softball. We found out that she's really good at it. It's a great way to get her outside and mingling with older girls, as she really doesn't get along too well with girls her own age cause of how damn mature she is. Brayden is a pain in the butt, like always, but I love him. He played T-Ball while Payton played softball, and seemed to like it ok. He also has a girlfriend, whom he absolutely adores. Her name is Macy, and she is a beautiful little girl that I like very much. I like her parents too, so that's a plus.

That's it for now. Next update will probably be after the ultrasound on the 31st.

New Year - New Things

Wow, I can't believe that we're already into February. Time flies by the older you get, I guess. Quite a bit has happened since my last post. The first, and most important, would be that I started school. I'm finally doing it!! It's very stressful, going to school 13 hours a week and working as close to 40 as I can - but I'm managing. I'm taking English Comp. I, Biology, Algebra, and Introduction to Education. The degree I'm pursuing is a BSE (Bachelors of Science in Education) with a major in Elementary Education. I've always wanted to teach, and now I'm finally going to be able to live that dream.

I've also taken on a new role at work. I'm now a project coordinator for Health Business Development - it's pretty much what I was doing before, but only dealing with the clinics and stuff. I do more analysis work and less of the assistant role, which is fun. It's a lot more work than I'm used to, and now that I'm in school - it can be a bit overwhelming. My old boss got relocated to California, and I'm now working with a woman that was reporting to my old boss. I'm happy though - as I adore my new boss. We get along so great together, and I enjoy her company very much.

Couple of weeks ago, I turned 25. Wow- I'm getting old.. LOL Got to take my birthday off, being that there was a couple of inches of snow on the ground which made school be out. That was a great chance for me to spend a couple of days relaxing and recouperating.

I've done a lot more research and studies on Wicca - and have really started getting involved with it. I'm working on building an alter, and I have a lot of new books to help me with trying some spells. I'm in the process of creating my own Book of Shadows, which is very exciting. The more I read, the more I love my new religion. It answers questions I've pondered for years, and allows me to search within myself. I've even wrote a paper about it for my English class, which is getting some good feedback.

Well, that's the update so far. Hopefully more soon. :)